Love. Ahem. Yes, Again.

First up, I have a PE board tomorrow which I'm not studying for. Yes, inspiration strikes at the most improbable times, or rather the most probable for us procrastinators.

WE NEED A CURE FOR PROCRASTINATION!
"WHEN DO WE WANT IT?"
NOT TODAY!

So yeaaaa. I'm a 17 year old who runs a blog, albeit erratically due to life changing commitments like Boards (with a capital B, yes) et cetera (they are over for me, mortal. Rejoice! No don't. Let me get into college first, douchebag). Did I just go off topic again?

OH YEAH. See, if I'm 17 and a girl and I run a blog, duh I'll blog about this lovely icky thing called love. Louuuuuu :O Because I strongly believe that our perceptions change according to the circumstances we're in (It's true, think about it), I also believe that our definition of lou definitely changes all the time. (I hate it when people spell definitely as definately. Slap yourself.)

What's my perception of lou right now? LOL. I don't know. It's very confusing. Or maybe we make it confusing. Lust kind of messes it up too. Oo look grown up terminology.. lust! Hah. No.
(My iPod just played All We Need Is Love. Awkward moment. Double awkward because I regularly hear the opening "Love love love!" as "Blah blah blah!". Ahem)

I don't see the point of this post, it's very ramble-y and confusing. That's my current state of mind too. About a lot of things, not just lou. Like college, man. The hell is this torture?! And also this permanent nagging in my mind that I should be studying! when there's nothing to study -.-
Other things troubling me:

1. This Ibra guy.
2. Exam weight. EVERYONE GETS IT. *stares creepily at your flat stomach*
3. General lack of inspiration
4. General excess of attraction towards certain people (who we shouldn't be attracted to. DO YOU HEAR ME AKANKSHA? NO.)

Things that are possible answers to the questions of the universe:

1. Panic! At The Disco's song names
2. Jensen Ackles (Have you seen anyone hotter? Cristo.)
3. The black timer thingy in Blackberries.
4. Tomorrow's PE paper

You know what I think?
I think that the most tangible form of love is freshly shampooed hair.

AW MAN.

Ramblings

What makes us different from one another? Really, think about it. Essentially, we're all members of the same species, and if we go by mythology, we've all risen from Adam and Eve. Innumerable evolutionary processes have eventually made us the people who we are today. You may argue about nurture shaping nature or the opposite, but that's not what troubles me as of now.

We're all individuals with distinct personalities. These distinguish us, and make us known to others by certain characteristics that are peculiar to only us. Yet, we all act different with different people. How does this work out? It isn't like our entire personality changes (that would cause an awful lot of instable governments and incredibly rich psychologists), but little changes. You'd be more serious with a certain person, more fun loving with another. It's slightly odd, but come to think about it, this is also the reason why some people share that instant chemistry, while some hate each other right off the bat.

Have you also noticed how the very same equation changes gradually over time with some people, but with others, you always share the same rapport no matter what? I'm incredibly blessed to know some people of the latter category. These are the people who are you "rock", they epitomize the word evergreen. You'll always have that equation with your parents, and the friends who've stuck with you over the years. No matter how PMS-ey you may be, what your mood may be, whether you're fat or thin or have a tendency to go batshit crazy, at the end of the day, you basic equation with them remains the same.

But with the rest, that equation keeps changing. Usually it's because of some incident that may have occurred. It might be because you guys got insanely inebriated one night and discovered that you hate each other, but hate another person EVEN more, so you're best friends. Or it could be simply because you broke up with them and are trying to move on. Either way, this erratic nature of equations is constant.

I still don't know the point of why I started writing this. It was mainly because I wanted to figure out why our chemistry with some people sometimes goes away, but keeps coming back. Change is difficult to embrace when past comforts are a permanent reminder in your head. It's sad, but it happens. It often results in awkward situations, or sudden confessions which weren't part of the picture to begin with. No matter what, sometimes, I feel the need to tell others that even though their role in my life might have changed, they are still very much a part of me.

Is this all too vague? Maybe it is. Humans are shady people anyway.

life update

still alive. added twitter widget as proof. (yes, i'm awfully active there) (unlike in real life, causing my proportions to might just start resembling a rhino's soon)
you'll see more of me 24th onwards.

SOMEONE BUY ME A CAMERA. humble appeal. will click lots of pictures of you, honest.

3 more to go! *happy dance*

random thought:
even after 11 years, everytime i say, "it's hot in here", someone still suggests i take off all my clothes.

**this is usually srijan

much love!