In the past one year, I have forgotten the point of writing a blog. Somewhere down the line, it went from a place where I sought refuge from my own thoughts and wrote to settle the storms in my mind, to a place where I wrote to provide entertainment.

Guys, I think I'm a sell out :(

Kidding. I think it's kind of weird to publicize your own life, thoughts, and feelings, but it's a decision I took voluntarily. If there's something supremely entertaining that needs to be shared, it will be shared. Otherwise, it stays on the blog. People who want to read it are free to do so, otherwise chilllllll tfo because everyone has enough of their own drama in life.

So where do I begin? I don't know. I've walked out of possibly the biggest roller coaster of a relationship - one with incredible highs but lows that sank too low. There are still things that hold me back, like vines entwining my entirety - but who said falling out of love was easy? 

You know what really sucks though? Burning bridges. I find it impossible to do, how can you just get up one day and cut somebody off, just like that? I lost a friend who chose to involve herself in my relationship as well. That's the trouble - from a relationship, you still expect heartbreak because there are expectations. You expect love in return of you loving somebody. Love is selfish, but that doesn't make it bad. That's just how it is.

But you choose to be friends with somebody without any ulterior motives (at least the honest kind of friendship). You don't expect an outcome out of your bond - you're friends simply because you are. Which is why it hurts more to be betrayed by a friend than by a lover, because a lover will hurt you and you'll find closure and move on. But when a friend breaks your trust, it's crushes your soul because.. there is no closure, you've been hurt simply by virtue of being a friend. 

Life moves on. You make new friends. You rebound. You bounce back. I just don't want to enter a new relationship with any excess baggage, but my heart seems to be betraying me by fancying another already. 

Uff.

On a completely different note, can ppl plz staaaaahp hating on ice bucket challenges already? Go find something better to do in life, I'm sure you all can find better utilization of your emotions than hating on something pointlessly (If you're hating so much, GO DONATE NA. Na khud donate karoge, na awareness spread karoge, bas ghar pe baith ke rote rahoge). Unbunch your panties, because bunching them up is uncomfortable and it'll prevent you from getting any*

*PSA.