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HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARRY POTTER, JK ROWLING AND NEVILLE LONGBOTTOM!

(Not necessarily in that order)

Aww man. I read Philosopher's Stone today all over again to relive the magic.
Two hours of pure, unadulterated joy.
Siiiiigh.
I wish the series had lasted longer.
Because today, when I was reading the first book, I realized that it's already over.

dots

i don't know.
it's his decision now.
i'd like to say that i don't care.
but then i'd be lying.

you're not in trouble if you don't get caught ;)

pocahontas

“ I’d rather die tomorrow than live a hundred years without knowing you. ”

John Smith

hahaha

this is beautiful

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant.Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” - Bob Marley

neon

You're now reading the blog of my school's new Vice Head Girl.

HELL YEAH!


A few people in the student council were a big, BIG surprise (or shock), but what's done is done. Almost all my friends got a post!
(Except Srijan, who didn't apply. Smart boy. Will go a long way.)

The rest of the day was okay too. Nupur gave me her birthday present (it's a fuzzy teddy. i like :D) and so did Karan (who had no freaking clue about what he was giving me 'cuz his mum bought it for him. Hahahahaha :P)
The math test was okay too, although the moment I took out my pen, I lost the freaking pencil box. I had to like, beg people to give me scales and pencils and the middle of the test. -.-

Also got two MUN awards! Commendation for best position paper and special contribution to the committee .

Um, um, what else. I have a cold, haha. Last week finally took its toll on me :P

The chocolate cake won't get off my hair! It smells like chocolate cake and I keep feeling hungry!
Not cool.

Tanay's text today (He's the Vice Head boy):
"We are the champions.....yeaaaaahhh......."
Hahahaha, freak :P

i'm getting knocked down

i can't figure out how to get back up again.

love

"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you because I know no other way.

happy birthday, akankshaa.
i love you more than words can speak and memory can hold."
Diya


"Happy Birthday :)
You're 16 :D
And I miss you you shit loads today :(
Worst part? You are having that wierd theme party just when I am not around!
Loser..
It has been ages since I have shouted across balconies with someone and then losing my voice. I miss it man!
No one is cooler than you,
Not Akshay,
Not Srijan.
And I am above the league :P
I need to make those ' mitti ke ladoo' with you or play 'bell-bell' with you or just sneaking into Malibu town. It's been ages I have done all these Crazy Stuff!
I want to dress you up like a girl again! It was Fun :D
And Lets make some 'Kheer wala hakka noodles' ?
Hahahha... I can't ever forget that!
And remember that fight we had over me having a mobile phone and you not having a mobile phone? It was a classy one :P
We have so many memories that we can even write up a book about our childhood :P

Omg,
I just realized how important you were in my life!
You know, I have stopped going swimming also.Just because you have put me into the habit of NOT swimming alone!
I hate swimming now! It's so boring. I have no one to play with! :(
Come soon.... I need play in the pool with you!

I miss you love Like soooooo much!
But, Have loads of fun today. Okay?
And where will you get a straightner from now?
Shit, Thats a big problem now :P
Hahahaha..

I love you :)
And Happy Birthday :D
Aur..
MERA BIRTHDAY AA RAHA HAI AB :D

P.s: Save my return gift. okay?

♥"

Shreya

Srijan, your letter. 

i am 16, going on 6

This week was so hectic but turned out so beautifully, I cannot tell you.
And don't slap me if I take part in MUN again.
I got the commendation award for best position paper.
Yes B)

Also, delegates of nigeria and France, BFFs, according to the IP.
Hahahahahahah :P

I love somebody and I miss them a lot right now. Yes, you.
I wish I could've met you today. I missed you so much.
I don't want to feel sad right now though.
Because a lot of good stuff happened to me today :)

I have a maths test on monday, have lost both my registers and don't know shit about one of the chapters.
Oh well.

Happy Birthday Akanksha :) 16 years over already. But as Diya would say, doesn't affect my mental age. At all.
Hahahaha. True words.

thank you

It's my birthday today :)

It's almost over, actually. I had the most amazing time ever, and I'm so, SO lucky to have family and friends like mine.

I had a small party today, and was so scared that a disaster might happen, but it went so smoothly, everyone got along so well, the food and music were perfect, the theme was appreciated, everyone loved the cake so much they finished it within 5 minutes, and everyone had a blast.

Diya, Akshay and Shreya made a little something for me. it's a video, and Akshay accidentally took the pendrive home with him -__- But he posted it for me on fb, and he'll get the pendrive on Monday.

It was so sweet! It made me laugh and cry all at once.

Kaushal is an ass because he made this horrible pic of me and him his profile pic, but he's my awesome dude friend anyway :P Same goes for Saksham, thank you two :)

Tarana had a good time. I was so happy for her, she actually felt much, much better now. And Diya totally did everything to boost her morale.

Srijan, you're my bestest bud ever. Seriously. Anmol, Sagar, Charvi; it wouldn't have been as amazing without you all :)

There are too many people who I love. And yes, they've all made my life special in some way or the other.

Sometimes, I can't strike a balance between them. It's not a nice situation, but we all try. We fall down, get back up, and make an effort again.

The most amazing people in my life may or may not be mentioned here, but you all know who you are. 

I love you all.

Thank you for making these 16 years of my life so wonderful :)

they never throw it back to you

Slap me if I take part in any MUN ever again.
Okay don't. But just maybe. To remind me of the pointlessness of it all.
(But it's fun. Taking everyone's case. Just a little.)
^_^

no way!

I just saw R's blog and he's posted the same thing.






O_O

Btw, the gift's beautiful.
(And it was wrapped pretty nicely too ^_^)

we welcome you all to dee.pee.ess.

The school welcome song is stuck in my head! I don't know what to do! This is not a very nice situation!

Soo the ceremony took place today. Compering went well (or so I was told). I was supposed to get a blue tie (and I did), but it's actually the shirt patch, to be put on the shirt's pocket.
Wtf?
Apparently we'll get it by winter.
If the school people ask us to pay for it, they're dead.

Had my second interview, this time with the princi. It went well, the questions were the same like the first interview's!
It was so weird!

I have MUN tomorrow, day after and friday. I think my head's kinda spinning.

In about an hour and a half, someone's turning 19! :D
I still don't know why he's not happy about it.
I think 19 is a very cool number. All the people who're 19 do the most fun and crazy and meaningful stuff in this year.
But then, nobody takes account of my opinion now, do they?

Hm. Anyway, I'm really tired. I'll just stay up to print a bunch of useless stuff (yes I'll stay up till 12, calling up people on birthdays is a ritual, hello!). Then I'll sleep.
Oh, sleep :)

You know what I don't like about this week at all?
I can't meet my boyfriend on his birthday.
I can't meet him on my birthday.

Perfect.

we'll fight for you like we were your soldiers

All the Right Moves by OneRepublic is most definitely stuck in my head right now.

I like how this weekend has started out. I (finally) got my uniform work done, got a grip on my MUN crisis, made sure my compering script had been changed (the original kind of sucked.), planned out the sixteenth birthday details (YAY!) and a bunch of other stuff.

Our school's music teacher is rather adamant I sing in the choir. His exact words were, 'Aap bahut achha gate ho, aapko pata nahi hai.' (You sing really well, you just don't know it yet)
Uh, okay.
So anyway, he wants me to sing and compere at the same time. -__-

School's kinda getting back to normal again. The routine's established, after 6 hours of dreariness in school, I come back home exhausted, eat lunch, then take a nap/ go for math class, wake up/come back, meet Bhatia sometimes, do homework, talk on the phone for a bit, watch White Collar for an hour (and do homework simultaneously), talk some more on the  phone, then fall asleep.

It's actually really sad, I think.

BUT WEEKENDS ARE LOVE ZOMFG.
THANK YOU FOR WEEKENDS, WHOEVER MADE THE CALENDER!

I got a rather disturbing call awhile back. I have friends with messed up lives :|
Khyati is very intent to find 'hangout' places (you know what I mean) for her and her boyfriend, now that he's joined our school and all.
Hahahahahahaha :P

Overheard in school:
"Do I have big boobs?"
"No"
"Then why does he like me?"

-____-

champagne supernova

I had my interview today and it went well!
Also, I'm getting a blue tie this year.
That's 2 scholar badges, 1 blue blazer and 2 blue badges, along with 8 years of slogging my butt off to score well.
Oooh I feel so geeky and proud :D

To do by the end of this week:
- Math> Induction
- Acc 
- Prepare for B.St. on friday
- Eco questions ch1
- Eng lit> chapter+poem
- POSITION PAPER!!!!

And I think my laptop has virus. Shiiite.

clarity

Today was a good day, despite being a school day. ^_^
R visited, aww. Nu-pooh's switched over to humanities! The class isn't that bad. I might get used to it. :)

They signed me up for singing and dancing programmes, HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I didn't really protest, it's fun! I suck at singing, but dancing, yeah. Whatever.
Rumour has it that appointee interviews are tomorrow! Boo. It's such a huge fuss, there's nothing to it, really. You either bullshit your way through it (even though the teacher knows) or you end up exaggerating about your better traits.
They've already made up their minds, I'm telling you!

The evening today was gorgeous! Clouds were floating away and it was windy and cold and almost perfect.

And I think I've finally understood my MUN topic. 8 days before the conference.
Better late than never!

Oh, and I'm thinking about attending the Peacock Feather Project.

Please, call me Blah

I just want to..
                     ak,jbsdbad83yjdfnb,sdfhjk.ds
  
 

For Chit

Hey you? 

It's gonna be alright.

I promise.

Hold up... hold on... don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile... Shine on... Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.

Cuz all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up... Come on... why you scared
You'll never change what been and gone 

Cuz all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

serendipity

I've been researching like a mad scientist for the upcoming UMUN and trust me when I say I'm one step away from blowing a fuse.
And I keep coming across all this cool stuff, unrelated to my research, and I really have to stop myself from looking into it.
Had a fairly uneventful day, besides a 2 hour conversation with Chit that left me completely exhausted, but left me with a good feeling. :) (Although everytime I talk to her, I realize that a majority of boys are stupid)

SHIT she just called!
Long life.

Look> I can't describe how I feel when I look at this. Not happy. Just.. something.

untitled

look outside
wet and gray
a little man
wandering away
he wore a red hat
and a yellow coat
and walking beside him
was a green goat
he stopped me and asked
is it time yet?
i looked at him
replied, no, not yet
he disappeared across the corner
but left his goat behind
i shouted for him
but he was nowhere to find
now im searching for the man
who left behind his goat
he wore a red hat
and a yellow coat

i wrote this in 4th grade. my dr. suess moment :D

im bored of this template.

capeside golf

We had the most awesome workshop on cyber crime in school yesterday!
Although it made me slightly paranoid about using facebook, I think it was REALLY useful. Kudos to our school, they got something right, finally!

Other than that, school's okay. The single hand chairs are a real piss off, you just can't sit on them!
 I mean, you can't cross your legs, you can't dangle your legs (unless you're really, really short), you can't sleep on them, jeez!


My English teacher sucks! I hate it when English teachers suck.
But she's terrible! I mean, yesterday we did this amazing chapter by Khushwant Singh and she totally failed to capture the essence of his writing and explain it to the class.
SHE DIDN'T EVEN GIVE PROPER JUSTICE TO THE ENDING. 
(thunder roars above head)

My list of coolest English teachers who've taught me:

5. Sonia Ma'am (she was scary as hell, but this woman knows teaches really well. scary, but then we just live with that. kinda.)
4. Mukta Ma'am (eccentric, and she insulted me in her first class by telling me my elbow looked like a traffic signal. I love such people.)
3. Sucharu Ma'am (loud, but an amazing teacher and an even amazing person. I'm glad to still be in touch with her)
2. Gurinder Ma'am (this lady had such.. elegance. and poise. and her crooked nose reminds me of dumbledore. excellent teacher, knew how to capture our attention.)

And on number one, we have.. 
(drumroll)
1. Ady Ma'am (short for Aditi Bandhyopadhyay. She changed the way I studied this subject. Her energy was infectious! She made me want to grow up and become an English teacher. I could write on and on about her but I'd rather not.)

Aww man. I miss Ady ma'am!

eureka!

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

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Wealth |||||||||||| 50% Dependency |||||||||||||| 60% Change averse |||||||||| 40% Cautiousness |||||||||||||| 60% Individuality |||||||||||||| 60% Sexuality |||||||||||| 50% Peter pancomplex |||||||||||| 50% Histrionic |||||||||||| 50% Vanity |||||||||| 40% Artistic |||||||||||| 50% Hedonism || 10% Physicalfitness |||||||||||||| 60% Religious |||||||||| 40% Paranoia |||| 20% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 63% Indie |||||| 30%

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Stability results were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Extraversion results were high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:
messy, disorganized, social, tough, outgoing, rarely worries, self revealing, open, risk taker, likes the unknown, likes large parties, makes friends easily, likes to stand out, likes to make fun of people, reckless, optimistic, positive, strong, does not like to be alone, ambivalent about chaos, abstract, impractical, not good at saving money, fearless, trusting, thrill seeker, not rule conscious, enjoys leadership, strange, loves food, abstract, rarely irritated, anti-authority, attracted to the counter culture

:D

I feel a little crazy right now, hahahaha :P

(In a good way)

SCHOOL REOPENED TODAY!
It was good, it was bad, it was ugly.
But but, I'm counting on a few people to keep me entertained this year, haha :P

WC semi's starting in 5 minutes, so for a change, I'll keep this one short.

Look what I found>

-_-

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

fuck it all.
just, ugh. let school start already, i'd rather study than actually think. cuz when i start thinking, ^ that happens.

i really wanted to go out tomorrow and meet sucharu mam and archit and sahil and surbhi. and if this fucking strike happens, then it's a big fat disappointment.
the strike should happen, ofcourse. they're increasing prices to every damn thing (btw why the hell is everything cheaper in calcutta?)

in other news, monsoon has arrived. finally. so now instead of this scorching heat that we had, now we'll have humid. just perfect. now my hair will poof up because of the humidity and make me look like a moron, my skin will rebel against me and look shiny and FEEL humid, ergh. also, mosquitoes will return.
hallelujah.
when the fuck is the semi final? im so pissed i could return to playing football again.
not.

(saying not after stuff was actually cool once upon a time.)

but i don't wanna return to school so bad. i just need something to keep me busy. busier than i am now. i wanna get so involved that i really, REALLY just stop thinking.
because you know what happens when i think too much?
i start thinking negatively. and horrible stuff comes to mind, stuff like guilt. oh i'm loaded with guilt, everything is my fucking fault.
NO IT'S NOT.
i need someone to tell me that and mean it.
i really want to talk to you.
and you.
and you.
(i hope you all realise you're different people. -_-)

i don't like thinking this way. i never think this way. i don't know what the hell is wrong with me.
i really should be grateful to life.
what am i?
i confuse myself by the way i think.
but im grateful for everything i have in life. i really am.
i just keep forgetting to appreciate the nicer things, cuz the not so nice stuff overwhelms me sometimes.
thank you god.
seriously.
i wish my glasses were tinted a more rosier shade though.

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im listening to all these retro hits on the radio, and it makes me realize how i really love listening to the radio.
especially when it's raining, im laying on my bed, the light is switched off, im alone in my room.
i love that feeling.

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i've finally started working on my room's softboard. with all the pictures to be printed, words to be written and art to be drawn, it'll be done by next month, im pretty sure.
i'd forgotten what it felt like to just let go and immerse yourself in creativity. that intense feeling, it's magical and unreal, it's something you've created.
it's something that's you, but outside of you. it proves you're there, you exist in this world, you're not just somebody's figment of imagination.

is that too much to ask?

I hate being confused and that's exactly what I am right now. Grr.
And I hate the reason why I'm confused.
And I hate the decisions I make.
And I hate the decisions I can't make.
And I don't know whether I should be happy or sad or nothing at all.
This isn't fun.
I wish someone would understand what I'm going through.