slow down, you crazy child

The song's stuck in my head, for some very weird reason. Haven't heard it in a long looong time, in fact, I don't even know it's name, but I've had it in my playlist since awhile, and then suddenly, I fell in love with it.
I think it's by Billy Joel. Sounds like him.

Slow down, you crazy child 

you're so ambitious for a juvenile 

But then if you're so smart, tell me 

Why are you still so afraid? 

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about? 

You'd better cool it off before you burn it out 

You've got so much to do and 

Only so many hours in a day 

But you know that when the truth is told.. 

That you can get what you want or you get old 

You're gonna kick off before you even 

Get halfway through 

When will you realize, Vienna waits for you? 

Slow down, you're doing fine 

You can't be everything you want to be 

Before your time 

Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight 

Tonight

Too bad but it's the life you lead 

you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need 

Though you can see when you're wrong, you know 

You can't always see when you're right. you're right 

You've got your passion, you've got your pride 

but don't you know that only fools are satisfied? 

Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true 

When will you realize, Vienna waits for you? 

Slow down, you crazy child 

and take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile 

it's all right, you can afford to lose a day or two 

When will you realize,..Vienna waits for you? 

And you know that when the truth is told 

that you can get what you want or you can just get old 

You're gonna kick off before you even get half through 

Why don't you realize,. Vienna waits for you 

When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Okay, I was right. It is by Billy Joel, it's called Vienna. Google win :D

I wonder why the name makes me think somebody's asked me to listen to it, and I didn't know I'd already heard it :/

I'm over analyzing this.

day ten

Final 10 words
On earth or marking the end of these 10 days?

(Oh 10 words are over already. :P)

Um. Before I die? It'll all come out as raspy whispers anyway.

I don't know.

Uh.

(how articulate. I should get an award)


I think my blog's too bright. hurts the eyes.

do you think about me now and then?

i really should sleep now. but i need to get all of this out of my system. i need it to. there's so much i want to say but i don't know how to say it.

I NEED A NO STRINGS ATTACHED VACATION WITH NO WORK DURING IT AND NO WORRIES ABOUT WORK THAT MIGHT BE AFTER THE VACATION.

fuck this, no more extra curriculars, just let the current ones get over.
i'm exhausted.
people take me for granted.
just because i'm doing something for you doesn't mean i'll keep doing it for you.

my results in these exams were pathetic by my standards. i don't CARE if you say 'oo you got this much and you're still dukhi haww', because honestly, fuck you. i know what my potential is, and if i'm saying i've not scored well, maybe you can just shut the hell up and listen to what i'm trying to say, and not butt in and mention your expert advice.

because i know people who've done better. much, much better. and i know i can do better than these people, because i HAVE done better than them.
so what if i'm a perfectionist?
maybe i really do want to work to my best potential and not just get carried away by your words when you say that my score is okay.
because it is not okay.

i have my october break coming up, and i have to work in that too. i have an mun,
it's going to be great exposure.
it's going to be of no use.
this is what i'll remember from school.
this is what might not let me get good grades and get into a decent college.

i can't believe it, but i'm actually frustrated that i don't know what to do with my life. some people say it's too early, but i look around, and people KNOW what they're gonna do.
i don't even know if i want to do a particular course in college or not.

i wanted to do psychology so bad, and school didn't let me take it.
psychologist goes out of the window.
i don't know what the hell an mba will do to make your life better.
i've wanted to go into journalism since forever, and now everyone tells me it's a tough field, it'll take forever to actually find something decent.
i wanted to go into advertising, i say that, everybody tells me, 'oh just like ruhin!' . and that stupid sentence just makes me want to hurl them out of the window. no, not like him. i'm an indivual person, why don't you tell me something better than 'you got inspired by him?'.
because i've dreamed my dreams long before a number of these important people came into my life.

i don't want to end up becoming a nobody.

i don't want to come off looking weak. or scared. or vulnerable.
but sometimes, that's exactly how i feel.

you can't always see when you're right

so much's been happening recently.
for one thing, teacher's day celebrations are finally over.
it was amazing, seriously. despite slight glitches and some criticism, i think we 11th graders put up a fantastic show, much much better than the show put up by the 12th graders, simply because we managed to do so well despite being given lesser time than them.

and yes, if you can sense some bitterness in my words, it's because it's there.

but anyway, i wore a saree for the first time in almost 10 years (wore one in 1st grade for some fancy dress, haha). i was really scared i wasn't going to be able to pull it off, but judging from what everyone else said, i think it looked pretty decent :)

now practices are over and i don't want to attend classes! when will the farewell come? ;P

tomorrow, i'm going to give my first peer education class on substance abuse.
it feels so weird, 3 years back, i was the one sitting in the class listening to my seniors, and i used to think, 'wow, these people are so big and smart and well.. seniors!'
and now i'm that senior.
time passes by so quickly. and our paradigms change so dramatically.
does this happen at every stage of life?
but does this also mean that we start realizing the naiveness of our younger years, and hence lose the charm of childhood?
because if 3 years ago, i used to think so differently, what will happen after 10 years? or when i'm old and looking back on life?
so does this mean that despite being very necessary and useful, experience actually kind of takes away the very essence of the unknown and makes life duller?

day nine

10 Ways to Win my Heart

1. Open the door for me

2. Smile at me

3. Get me a flower, not a bouquet

4. Be nice to the waiter

5. Play with my hair

6. Hugs

7. Compliment me

8. But tease me too

9. Respect me for my choices

10. Write me a song AWWWWWWWW man my heart's gone already :P

This is getting really cheesy now, hahahaha.

day eight

10 of my favourite songs
This one was tough. I ended up choosing my comfort playlist.
There can obviously be a million more songs in this one, but these were the ones that came to my mind within 2 minutes (BECAUSE I'M LATE AND I NEED TO RUN NOW AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA)

1. Faint - Linkin Park
2. Yellow - Coldplay
3. Learning to Breathe - Switchfoot
4. Why Georgia Why - John Mayer (or Slow dancing..)
5. Wonderwall - Oasis (or Live Forever)
6. Wake me up when september ends - Green Day (My first greenday song. Obviously made an impact)
7. Free falling - Tom Petty
8. Have a Nice Day - Bon Jovi (or Scar Tissue/Dani California/Californication - RHCP)
9. Stacy's Mom - Fountains of Wayne
10. Learn to fly - Foo Fighters

What an eclectic mix.Also also! Drops of Jupiter, Fields of Gold, Stand by me (Ben King), Cecilia,MyLoveANDOMGTHERE'STOOMANYOFTHEM/GOTTAGO/BYE.

day seven

10 Important people

I'm not doing this. You all know who you are.

day six

10 items I cannot live without

(It's obviously beyond air, water, food and sleep)

1. iPod/Radio

2. Laptop

3. Books & magazines

4. Phone

5. Internet

6. Flip flops

7. Cold milk and cereal

8. Stationary shops

9. Moisturizer

10. Electricity! Jesus, we could all use some more electricity!

It took me FOREVER to fill this up after #4. -__-
You realize how the first four were mass media?
It's kinda scary how much we all depend on it.

day five

(okay these are all late, so I'm posting them all together)

10 wishes

1. I wish I could read your mind.

2. I wish to fly.

3. I want to own an island.

4. I wish for happier people.

5. I wish for more acceptance from my parents.

6. I wish to meet my childhood friends again.

7. I wish for my Hogwarts letter.

8. I wish for a long holiday with no homework, nothing.

9. I wish to never gain a gram/have a cavity no matter how much I eat.

10. I wish for more manageable hair.

day four

10 things you want to say to one person

1. Um.

2. I'm sorry.

3. Can we be friends again?

4. Thank you for everything.

5. I still wonder what you might be upto these days.

6. I think you're awesome.

7. But please don't think too highly of yourself.

8. I don't like you for not keeping your promises.

9. I hope you're still the same person, even though I know you're not anymore.

10. I miss you.

Don't bother guessing. You'll be wrong anyway.

don't you think we ought to know by now?

Haiii. Sometimes, I wonder why bad things happen to good people. Karma is one thing, but the fact that circumstances make us go through such terrible an unwanted things in life really makes one wonder why life's the way it is.
It's not fair when somebody close to us falls sick. There is so much pain, so much agony, so much misery, you just don't know what to do, and why it's happening to somebody you love dearly. And times like these, you'd wish there was something you could do to ease the pain, share the burden somehow, just do something!
It is frustrating. It affects you deeply.
What do you do?
Sit back, have faith and hope it'll all turn out right?
Does it help alleviate the pain?
Does it fix what's wrong?
Does it give answers?

It saddens me.
I wish I could do something, anything to make you feel better.

day three

10 things I hate

(Not necessarily in that order)

1. Bad food

2. No air conditioning

3. Hypocrisy

4. Muddy feet

5. Lack of acceptance

6. tYpIn lYk DiS

7. Mosquitoes

8. Cold feet (literally)

9. Snobs ("We're way more superior than you ooh sizzle")

10. Bad exam results

day two

Day 2

Things I love

(Not necessarily in the same order)

1. Sunday newspapers

2. Music

3. Beaches

4. The sky

5. Summer

6. Hot chocolate fudge/blue bubblegum ice cream in waffle cones

7. White tshirts

8. Wavy hair

9. Hugs and snuggles

10. Photographs

Day one

Day 1: 10 things about you

1. I'm not a morning person. At all. 

2. I  don't judge anybody, even for the most insane things ever. (It's a major major flaw.)

3. I trust people far too easily.

4. I like summer more than monsoon, and monsoon more than winter.

5. The best day of my life was rather ordinary.

6. My anger always translates to tears, which is very frustrating.

7. I get scared very easily.

8. I talk to myself in French when I can't sleep at night. Also, the voice in my head gets an African accent when I get too stressed.

9. I have major self confidence issues, hahaha.

10. I'm almost always cheerful. (I've gotten a "Your daughter is a cheerful child" every year in my report card, without fail, since Nursery) Unlike what most people think, it's more out of habit rather than circumstances. Go figure.

Something to do

Day 1: 10 things about you
Day 2: 10 things you love
Day 3: 10 things you hate
Day 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
Day 5: 10 wishes
Day 6: 10 items you can’t live without
Day 7: 10 important people
Day 8: 10 of your favorite songs
Day 9: 10 ways to win your heart
Day 10: Final 10 words

Starting 19th September 2010.

pins & needles

“You build your world around someone, and then what happens when he disappears? Where do you go- into pieces, into atoms, into the arms of another man? You go shopping, you cook dinner, you work odd hours, you make love to someone else on June nights. But you’re not really there, you’re someplace else where there is blue sky and a road you don’t recognize. If you squint your eyes, you think you see him, in the shadows, beyond the trees. You always imagine that you see him, but he’s never there. It’s only his spirit, that’s what’s there beneath the bed when you kiss your husband, there when you send your daughter off to school. It’s in your coffee cup, your bathwater, your tears. Unfinished business always comes back to haunt you, and a man who swears he’ll love you forever isn’t finished with you until he’s done.”

- Alice Hoffman, Here on Earth


stolen from tarana's, who saw it on diya's (where?!)


makes you stop and think, doesn't it?

uh oh

okay i messed up the html and now all my blog posts are pink.

(unless i change the colour)

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I messed with my template, hahaha. It looks okay. Brighter. More cluttered. I like!

Exams are going fiiiine, looking forward to them ending (obviously)

I got my Vice head Girl Badge with my name on it! It feels so good wearing that.

I hope your troubles don't last long. They make life miserable, but help us come out stronger.

I'll be praying. She'll be all right. 

stolen from nandi

Your Brain Usage Profile:
Auditory : 50%
Visual : 50%
Left : 66%
Right : 33%
akanksha, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant with a balanced preference for auditory and visual inputs. Because of your "centrist" tendencies, the distinctions between various types of brain usage are somewhat blurred.
Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor, unless it requires total spontaneity and ability to improvise, your weaker traits. However, you are far from rigid or overcontrolled. You possess a degree of individuality, perceptiveness, and trust in your intuition to function at much more sophisticated levels than most.
Having given sufficient attention to detail, you can readily perceive the larger aspects and implications of a situation or of learning. You are functional and practical, but can blend abstraction and theory into your framework readily.
The equivalence of your auditory and visual learning orientation gives you two equally effective sensory input systems, each with distinctive features. You can process both unidimensionally and multidimen- sionally with equal facility. When needed, you sequence material while at other times you "intake it all" and store it for processing later.
Your natural ability to use your senses is also synthesized in your way of learning. You can be reflective in your approach, absorbing material in a non-aggressive manner, and at other times voracious in seeking out stimulation and experience.Overall you tend to be somewhat more critical of yourself than is necessary and avoid enjoying life too much because of a sense of duty. You feel somewhat constrained and tend to sometimes restrict your expressiveness. In any given situation, you will opt for the rational, and learning of almost any type should be easy for you. You might need certain ideas explained to you in order to fit them into your scheme of things, but you're at least open to that!




Huh? The distinctions between my types of brain usage are blurred -__-