slow down, you crazy child

The song's stuck in my head, for some very weird reason. Haven't heard it in a long looong time, in fact, I don't even know it's name, but I've had it in my playlist since awhile, and then suddenly, I fell in love with it.
I think it's by Billy Joel. Sounds like him.

Slow down, you crazy child 

you're so ambitious for a juvenile 

But then if you're so smart, tell me 

Why are you still so afraid? 

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about? 

You'd better cool it off before you burn it out 

You've got so much to do and 

Only so many hours in a day 

But you know that when the truth is told.. 

That you can get what you want or you get old 

You're gonna kick off before you even 

Get halfway through 

When will you realize, Vienna waits for you? 

Slow down, you're doing fine 

You can't be everything you want to be 

Before your time 

Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight 

Tonight

Too bad but it's the life you lead 

you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need 

Though you can see when you're wrong, you know 

You can't always see when you're right. you're right 

You've got your passion, you've got your pride 

but don't you know that only fools are satisfied? 

Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true 

When will you realize, Vienna waits for you? 

Slow down, you crazy child 

and take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile 

it's all right, you can afford to lose a day or two 

When will you realize,..Vienna waits for you? 

And you know that when the truth is told 

that you can get what you want or you can just get old 

You're gonna kick off before you even get half through 

Why don't you realize,. Vienna waits for you 

When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Okay, I was right. It is by Billy Joel, it's called Vienna. Google win :D

I wonder why the name makes me think somebody's asked me to listen to it, and I didn't know I'd already heard it :/

I'm over analyzing this.

day ten

Final 10 words
On earth or marking the end of these 10 days?

(Oh 10 words are over already. :P)

Um. Before I die? It'll all come out as raspy whispers anyway.

I don't know.

Uh.

(how articulate. I should get an award)


I think my blog's too bright. hurts the eyes.

do you think about me now and then?

i really should sleep now. but i need to get all of this out of my system. i need it to. there's so much i want to say but i don't know how to say it.

I NEED A NO STRINGS ATTACHED VACATION WITH NO WORK DURING IT AND NO WORRIES ABOUT WORK THAT MIGHT BE AFTER THE VACATION.

fuck this, no more extra curriculars, just let the current ones get over.
i'm exhausted.
people take me for granted.
just because i'm doing something for you doesn't mean i'll keep doing it for you.

my results in these exams were pathetic by my standards. i don't CARE if you say 'oo you got this much and you're still dukhi haww', because honestly, fuck you. i know what my potential is, and if i'm saying i've not scored well, maybe you can just shut the hell up and listen to what i'm trying to say, and not butt in and mention your expert advice.

because i know people who've done better. much, much better. and i know i can do better than these people, because i HAVE done better than them.
so what if i'm a perfectionist?
maybe i really do want to work to my best potential and not just get carried away by your words when you say that my score is okay.
because it is not okay.

i have my october break coming up, and i have to work in that too. i have an mun,
it's going to be great exposure.
it's going to be of no use.
this is what i'll remember from school.
this is what might not let me get good grades and get into a decent college.

i can't believe it, but i'm actually frustrated that i don't know what to do with my life. some people say it's too early, but i look around, and people KNOW what they're gonna do.
i don't even know if i want to do a particular course in college or not.

i wanted to do psychology so bad, and school didn't let me take it.
psychologist goes out of the window.
i don't know what the hell an mba will do to make your life better.
i've wanted to go into journalism since forever, and now everyone tells me it's a tough field, it'll take forever to actually find something decent.
i wanted to go into advertising, i say that, everybody tells me, 'oh just like ruhin!' . and that stupid sentence just makes me want to hurl them out of the window. no, not like him. i'm an indivual person, why don't you tell me something better than 'you got inspired by him?'.
because i've dreamed my dreams long before a number of these important people came into my life.

i don't want to end up becoming a nobody.

i don't want to come off looking weak. or scared. or vulnerable.
but sometimes, that's exactly how i feel.

you can't always see when you're right

so much's been happening recently.
for one thing, teacher's day celebrations are finally over.
it was amazing, seriously. despite slight glitches and some criticism, i think we 11th graders put up a fantastic show, much much better than the show put up by the 12th graders, simply because we managed to do so well despite being given lesser time than them.

and yes, if you can sense some bitterness in my words, it's because it's there.

but anyway, i wore a saree for the first time in almost 10 years (wore one in 1st grade for some fancy dress, haha). i was really scared i wasn't going to be able to pull it off, but judging from what everyone else said, i think it looked pretty decent :)

now practices are over and i don't want to attend classes! when will the farewell come? ;P

tomorrow, i'm going to give my first peer education class on substance abuse.
it feels so weird, 3 years back, i was the one sitting in the class listening to my seniors, and i used to think, 'wow, these people are so big and smart and well.. seniors!'
and now i'm that senior.
time passes by so quickly. and our paradigms change so dramatically.
does this happen at every stage of life?
but does this also mean that we start realizing the naiveness of our younger years, and hence lose the charm of childhood?
because if 3 years ago, i used to think so differently, what will happen after 10 years? or when i'm old and looking back on life?
so does this mean that despite being very necessary and useful, experience actually kind of takes away the very essence of the unknown and makes life duller?

day nine

10 Ways to Win my Heart

1. Open the door for me

2. Smile at me

3. Get me a flower, not a bouquet

4. Be nice to the waiter

5. Play with my hair

6. Hugs

7. Compliment me

8. But tease me too

9. Respect me for my choices

10. Write me a song AWWWWWWWW man my heart's gone already :P

This is getting really cheesy now, hahahaha.